tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-297545682011-04-21T18:06:50.453-07:00`[ confused ]~http://www.blogger.com/profile/04541681319320698699noreply@blogger.comBlogger41100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29754568.post-1150796877738338472006-06-20T02:37:00.000-07:002006-06-20T02:47:57.746-07:00<strong><em>getting an answer</em></strong><br /><strong><em>will the method works?</em></strong><br /><br />i decided to listen to you<br />you told me to continue mixing around with them<br />since i enjoyed hanging out with them<br />i will try to<br />thanks lots<br /><br />yes<br />i have to say<br />i really enjoyed hanging out with you guys<br />you all made me smile<br />you all made me laugh<br />you all brightened up my life<br /><br /><strong>macdonald</strong><br />the place we studied for exams<br />the place we have our lunch/dinner<br /><br /><strong>food junction</strong><br />the place we have our lunch/dinner<br />the place we sit and joke around<br /><br /><strong>ntuc</strong><br />the place we run about playing catching<br /><br /><strong>escalator outside ntuc</strong><br />the place we run up and down<br /><br />thanks you all<br />for always being there for me<br />esp. _____<br />you are always there<br />whenever i am sad<br />you listen to me<br />you watch me cry<br />thanks<br /><br /><strong><em>those days</em></strong><br /><strong><em>i wont forget</em></strong><br /><strong><em></em></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/29754568-115079687773833847?l=miracle-outthere.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>`[ confused ]~http://www.blogger.com/profile/04541681319320698699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29754568.post-1150640496319411882006-06-18T06:44:00.000-07:002006-06-18T07:28:05.300-07:00<strong><em>having attitude problems nowadays</em></strong><br /><strong><em>can i get over it?</em></strong><br /><br /><br />who can i talk to?<br />you?<br />no<br />surely not<br />you are my great friend<br />one who i treasure a lot<br />but things are changing<br />i still treasure you a lot<br />as much as before<br />however<br />i cant talk to you about things<br />as i once told you<br /><div>the troubles i am having is about the few of us</div><div>you always tell me</div><div>"<em> tell me your troubles, i will try my best to help you</em> "</div><div>yes</div><div>i am sure that you will help me if you can</div><div>but i still did not tell you the troubles</div><div>perhaps the reason is i dun dare to</div><div>i dunno what will happen if you knows about my feelings</div><div>things may change?</div><div>or prehaps the reason is i dunno how to</div><div>as you know</div><div>i seriously dunno how to express myself</div><div>i dunno how to tell you</div><div>tell you my feelings</div><div>am i supposed to say</div><div>" <em>hey, let me tell you sth.</em></div><div><em>do you know that i feel extra? </em></div><div><em>do you know that i wish and tried to give up on this friendship?</em> "</div><div>thats ridiculous right?</div><div>when ____ appearance came</div><div>initially i was sad</div><div>i knew that i have to give up on this friendship somehow</div><div>whether i want it or not</div><div>but then afterwards i was glad</div><div>i was happy</div><div>i want her to take my place to hang out with you all</div><div>at least</div><div>you all did not lose a friend</div><div>you guys are still going to enjoy yourselves</div><div></div><div></div><div>and you</div><div>i am foolish</div><div>i admit it</div><div>there are so many friends out there caring for me</div><div>but i did not care</div><div>i still feel that i am all alone</div><div>but maybe</div><div>unless you are in my shoes</div><div>or you wont be able to have my feelings</div><div>i told you before</div><div>i dun have anyone</div><div>you are always with _____</div><div>and he now will be with _____</div><div>so turned out?</div><div>who do i go with?</div><div>no one</div><div>maybe i will get used to it</div><div>as time passed by</div><div></div><div></div><div><em><strong></strong></em></div><div><em><strong></strong></em></div><div><em><strong></strong></em> </div><div><em><strong></strong></em> </div><div><em><strong>can i talk to you?</strong></em></div><div><em><strong>will you listen to me?</strong></em></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/29754568-115064049631941188?l=miracle-outthere.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>`[ confused ]~http://www.blogger.com/profile/04541681319320698699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29754568.post-1150445003584703512006-06-16T00:38:00.000-07:002006-06-16T01:03:23.593-07:00<strong><em>Do you really understand me?</em></strong><br />you said you do<br />but i dont think so<br />if you really do understand me<br />you would not have told me those stuff<br />you knew that i like him<br />i told you before<br />but he like you<br />everyone knows that<br />you dont like him<br />you only treat him as a friend<br />you ensured that you dont like him<br />but so what?<br />the point is that <em>he like you</em><br />its a fact which you cant change<br />you called me that day<br />asking me what you should do<br />you feeling that you are a third party<br />third party between him and her<br />i treat it as nth when you called me<br />but do you know that my heart hurts?<br />i gave you suggestions<br />told you what you can do<br />but somehow i feel sad<br />why are you telling me all these?<br />since you know i like him<br />why did you want to tell me that he like you<br />or even ask me what you should do<br />i helped you<br />but who will/can help me?<br /><br /><br /><em><strong>my heart broke becoz of you</strong></em><br /><em><strong>can you mend it up?</strong></em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/29754568-115044500358470351?l=miracle-outthere.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>`[ confused ]~http://www.blogger.com/profile/04541681319320698699noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29754568.post-1150372783768472242006-06-15T04:22:00.000-07:002006-06-16T01:05:58.020-07:00<strong><em>tired..<br />mentally tired<br />arent able to think properly<br />confused...</em></strong><br /><br /><br />we used to be so close<br />going out for dinner almost daily<br />having conference almost daily<br />studying tgt during exam period<br />i am starting to miss those days<br />it just seemed that i cant get back to the same old days<br />maybe coz i lead a diff. life as you all<br />i dont know<br />now i am getting further and further away from you all<br />and all of a sudden ____ came into this friendship<br />frankly speaking<br />i dont mind<br />i really dont<br />its just that with her sudden appearance<br />i feel weird hanging out with you guys<br />i am starting or rather already have the feeling<br />that i am the extra party in this friendship<br />i stop hanging out wth you all<br />stop having conference with you all<br />i wanted to get back this friendship<br />i tried to<br />i never tried organising conferences<br />but that day i did it<br />the first time<br />i smsed all of you and asked for conference<br />time : 8.30pm<br />no one called me<br />in fact<br />no one even smsed back to reply if they are calling<br />but i did not give up<br />i never give up that easily<br />i waited<br />waited<br />and waited<br />time passed<br />8.45pm<br />9.00pm<br />my phone still did not ring<br />9.15 came<br />and one by one you all called<br />i was glad<br />glad that eventually you guys still called<br />and a few days ago<br />you guys planned to go to the night market<br />i was like woah...<br />so happy at that time<br />i went there in the evening<br />while you went in the afternoon to study<br />i was surprised when i reached there<br />greatly surprised<br />initially i thought that it was only the 4 of us<br />but ____ went too<br />i was not unhappy<br />but shocked<br />in the end<br />the night market trip was not successful<br />i dont know why<br />everyone wanted to go home when i reached<br />then wat for i go?<br />waste my lrt fare?<br />waste my time?<br />conference,<br />she joined in too<br />you guys chatted happily<br />and i am invisible<br />finally i hunged up<br />i dont think anyone of you even noticed it<br />right?<br />no one smsed me to call back<br />i was so sad<br />i knew that i am the extra one<br />i knew that someday i am going to leave this grp of friends<br />i knew that _____ is going to take my place<br />take my place to go out with you all<br />take my place to hold conference with you all<br />dont you also think so?<br />you all may say<br />" <span style="FONT-STYLE: italic">oh girl. you are thinking too much</span> "<br />yes.<br />i may be thinking too much<br />all this may not take place<br />i am not sure if i am allowed to think this way<br />lying to myself is not the solution<br />i had also told myself<br />" <span style="FONT-STYLE: italic">oh girl. you are thinking too much</span> "<br />but wat happened in the end?<br />nth changed<br />but got worse<br />everytime you all asked me why i so depressed<br />my answer is always a nth<br />you all will then always say i keep a lot of things to myself<br />but what do you expect me to say?<br />say that i feel extra?<br />say that i feel so left out?<br />i cant<br />looking at the neoprints we took<br />reading the letters you wrote for me<br />everything seemed to be just a past tense<br />a memory<br />one day<br />my face on the neoprints will be replaced by ____<br />the letters you gave me will be given to ____<br /><br /><br /><em><strong>the friendship which i once treasured a lot was lost<br />finding it back is difficult<br />and i am tired to do so<br />giving up is the easiest way<br />but can i?<br />i tried<br />but cant<br />time..<br />it can solve everything<br /></strong><br /></em><br /><strong><em>can anyone tell me</em></strong><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold; FONT-STYLE: italic">wat should i do?</span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/29754568-115037278376847224?l=miracle-outthere.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>`[ confused ]~http://www.blogger.com/profile/04541681319320698699noreply@blogger.com0